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I loved him so very much. it all began one day when he admitted he loved me and i believed him.We where happy for 3 whole long months and he wanted my kids he wanted a family he wanted marridge*, he said he loved me more than anything and that he really truly meant it when he said i love you. he said he loved me more than he has ever loved anyone in his whole entire life. he remembered those little things we'd talk about and so did i. i'd reread our silly little conversations because they made me feel warm inside because i love him. i treasured every second with him every message made such joy into me and id cry some nights from how happy i was that he loved me as well. He always called me beautiful and cute and he'd have the cutest way of saying thank you instead of thank you he'd say thankies. I'd find that so adorably cute ^_^ We where happy for those 3 months saying good morning and goodnight, snuggling and kissing cuddling :') i wanted this man for my whole life he was my 5th boyfriend and he was my everything. he never let my mind any day and i was always concerned for his health and his mood i hated it when he was sad because then i'd hurt inside and i'd cry silently at night wishing he wasn't suffering. When he was happy i'd smile vibrantly for him because he doesnt like smiling. he'd say never leave me and id promise him i wouldn't. we where everything you just didn't see at all. And i was happy so very beautifully happy if he ever hurt me he'd feel awful and cry because he wouldn't mean to hurt me and he didn't. then came a day he stopped replying to my texts or answering my calls.... i never saw him anymore no matter where i went he was nowhere to be found. but one day after 2 weeks of me suffering worried he was hurt and crying endless every night until the sun would rise, and when the sun rose i knew he wouldn't be there to say good morning baby <3 then.... one day i accidently signed into an unactivated account and saw he was in a relationship with this girl. she was perfect.... beautiful and prettier than i could EVER be :'( i sent him a message saying so you lied. he blocked em and tried to forget me. that night i cried screamed and cut myself again. a month of not cutting because he helped me recover but now it's all thrown away....i cut whenever i had nothing better to do with myself or when it hurt alot thinking he left me for this prostitute (yes shes a prostitute). then a month passed i began to awaken without ability to walk and the big baggs under my eyes shined on my face. my eyes red everyday. i started starving myself and to ease my pain i'd cut.... then a month and a week i started to hate myself for loving him. i tried to starve myself but i was tired of making myself cry for him and starve. then a month and two weeks. i ddin't care anymore i promised myself if he ever returned i wouldn't take him back then the next day he sent a mesage saying he never meant to hurt me and he was sorry. i eplied and awaited and to this day (3 days later) im awaiting his reply and i shall wait :'(

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