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It was Summer, 2007. I had just left my husband of 11 years. I was so happy to do it. My daughter and I moved in with my parents while I got back on my feet to start over. A few months into the end of my marriage, I joined Myspace. Regret number 1. As I was browsing my old HS alumni, I came accross an old friend of an ex-boyfriend from 11th grade. I was shicked and delightfully surprised to see him so I sent him a message, simply saying...hey..remember me? Well, he did. I heard back from him that night...and well...one thing led to another..and I fell head over heels in love. We both did. It was the most amazing feeling I had ever felt. I felt more love and happiness than I ever did for my husband. I didn't even know that this kind of love existed. We moved in together...my ex was devastated..but he eventually got over it. Chris and I had so many wonderful times together. We had the greatest, most passionate sex I had ever had with anyone in my whole life. I knew in my heart, that he was my soul mate. That there was a reason I lived miserable for 11 years...the long wait would be worth gold some day. And that person was Chris. He treated me like gold. Told me things I'd never been told by a man. Always professed his undying love for me. We talked marriage. We had our ups and downs...as any couple does...but something started to go wrong...and we knew we needed to separate in July of 2009. But, we never gave up on each other. Living apart, we still talked everyday...and saw eachother everyday. We spent weekends together...trying to bring back what was so great in the beginning. I was struggling through my divorce and needed my space. By Christmas time, 09 I had gotten through all my issues and realized and made the decision that Chris was in fact the love of my life. I professed this to him two weeks before Christmas. Then, on New Years Eve, out of absolutely no where, he was gone...no goodbye...no explanation...nothing...just gone...I never saw or heard from him again...The devastating end to the best thing that ever happened to me...but it ended up being the worst thing that happened to me. I'm on anti-depressants and seeing a therapist for the first time ever. Nothing else has brought me to a complete hault in my life...thi has consumed me to the point where I cannot function...I spend all my weekends on my couch in my pj's. I cry all day, everyday...he's all I can think about..It's driving me insane...I have no closure...nothing. I'm lost without him...it's been two months...and I don't see this going away anytime soon. Advice, words of wisdom would be greatly appreciated, although I know that nothing heals a broken heart except for time...but facing a year of this, maybe more makes my stomach turn with fear and deeper depression than I can handle.

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Re: Devastating end to the best thing that ever happened to me  July 5th, 2010