I can relate to your story. When I found out about my boyfriend, lover, confidante,for 14 years. Yes, we never got married, didnt feel we needed to. We are both divorced. But he is a Captain and works out in the Gulf sometimes like 1 to 2 months at a time. So, if I dont hear from him for a couple of months I no he is out at sea. January of this year he told me that he fell in love with someone else. I was devastated, heart broke in a million pieces. He was my life. Hes last words to me before going offshore was, quote: My love 4 u can fill an ocean, my heart aches so much when I cant be with u unquote. So why the change? What did I do? I wanted to kill myself. Almost got that accomplished when I ran my car in a light post. He was notified that I was in the hospital. I had broken ribs, broken leg, but I survived. I know I did a stupid act. But, I loved him so much. No matter how much he and I tried to patch things up, I couldnt forgive him for being unfaithful to me. I turned into a raving maniac. I am trying to move on, he is still going to live with this new love of hes and I just try to take one day at a time. Thanks for listening...
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