hey darl- im so sorry 2 hear wat uv been thru- it bort tears 2 my eyes. Mind spellin- on mobile. mine didnt cheat & it wasnt sister or anythin but i understand havin 2 liv with it rubbed in ur face everyday. My current partner who constantly breaks my hart(im new, urs was 1st i red but keep an eye out 4 mistydaze3- i hav a thousand stories 2 post from this relationship!) my mans ex lived next door 4 yr & half they had 3 kids 2getha (but only the 1st is deff his, i mean almost 100% that the othas arnt- cheatin slut!) their 3rd passed away at 9wks & she blamed him & always used emotional blackmail. me & my 2 sons always came last caus if she didnt get wat she wanted shed make up stories & get welfare, cops, housin etc ova. So we always had 2 hav girls stay giv her money etc- 1 time she asked 4 cig & we didnt hav any so she smashed our window & called cops sayin he hit her? Etc. Shed cum in2 my hous yellin, pushin me round & i cudnt hit her bak caus shed dog str8 away & i cudnt call cops on her caus he new she wud lose girls 2 welfare 4 eva & he was taken from his parents. So id sit nextdoor alone from 1st thing in morn till midnite while he did evrythin 4 girls & her hous so she didnt stop him seein girls or smash my place up etc. Evryday it was rubbedin my face- even afta we had our son- she & the girls always came 1st no matter how i begged. Sorry 4 long explanation but i know how u feel- shed constantly flirt with him & act like they were stil a family & how she stil had him wrapped round her finger & cud always get it ova him with her immature, selfish, pathetic bullshit. She was like that b4 their son died & even b4 she met my man. Think urself lucky that u can move on & find sum1 who truly LUVS u & that ur not constantly bein judged bcaus sum littl slut makes big lies bout u constantly. Rememba how wiked ur kids r- ther is 100 mor chaptas 2 my story- i WAS a proud independant women who never relied on any1 2 provide 4 me & looked afta myself since my ONLY family- my motha, got sik wen i was a young child & i had 2 look afta her & me- but now, iv thort of suicide pretty much daily 4 2yrs........ But i cudnt do that 2 my 3 sons, or my mum whom i stil look afta. That bein said tho- i returned 2 slashin & drug use & am only just gain a lil bit of strength ova these demons now- iv made a hideous mess of myself physically & emotionally & am not so much the proud self suffaficient woman i was a few yrs ago. B STRONG, U HAV FREINDS HERE- CONCENTR8 ON U,
DITCH THE PPL WHO DONT MATTA, SAVE UP SO U CAN GET OUTTA THER & DO WATEVA U CAN 2 BETA URSELF & TRY & SPEND AS LITL TIME IN THAT HOUS AS POSSIBL -U DONT OWE ANY OF THEM SHIT. IT WIL B THE HARDEST FUCKIN THING U WIL DO IN UR LIFE- BUT WEN UV GOT SUM PRIDE & MADE NEW FRIENDS & HAV NEW PLACE- WEN THEIR LIFE FALLS APART U CAN LAUGH KNOWIN UR BETA THAN THEM. JUST CAUS THER BLOOD DONT MEAN SHIT- IV HAD NO FAM & HAD STRONGA FREINDSHIP THAN MOST FAMILYS I KNO. TIME 2 DO A PERSON, EMOTIONAL SPRING CLEAN & GET RID OF THE THINGS U DONT WANT ANYMOR. & IF U CANT GET RID OF THEM THEN C THOSE PPL, FEELINGS 4 WAT THEY R & ACCEPT THAT DWELLIN ON THEM WIL NOT CHANGE ANYTHIN- IT WIL JUST STEAL ENERGY U CUD SPEND ON HEALIN & MAKIN UR LIFE BETA. GDLUCK. XO
P.S. IM SORRY BOUT THE RANT, BIT UPSET AT MOMENT & TRYIN 2 TAKE MY OWN ADVICE. PLEAS KEEP US POSTED.
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