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OK well I had one of those long-distance thing going on, but it was strong, we had unconditional love for one another, well thats what I thoght. Josh and I got together December 28th, 2006 well had meet one another therough frinds on VampireFreaks.com. We both had just gone thrugh a realy bad relation ship with past boyfriends and girlfrinds, he was seeking love but I wasnt not quite yet, I head been hit in the past relationship I had and I didnt quite trust guys for a lil wile, but eventuly of a cuppel of weeks talking and geting to know onw another, he told me that he loved me. It ment so much to me, he was sweet and loveing, so we had our times and had arguments and didnt talk sometimes so we both could cool off. Well we had gon a long time with out fighting and then he asked me to marry him, my heart droped to the floor, and I said YES, this was done on our 3rd moth anaversary. Then all a suden lesser calls and texts, I was geting a lil worryed, but then it was going onto weeks of no calls or texts, now I was tarified. Everytime I called he would reject all of my calls, and never ansuredx me back on emails or texts. So by then I could start to feel my heart to brake, we were going onto our 5 month anaversary, he called me cuse I sednt a vary upseting text to him, and then he cam out and sed that he dosent love me anymore, or that he dosent know if he truly loves me, and i could not belive what I was hearing, all the things that I have done and all the love I gave him. He had left me in a place that I still linger in heart ace, and tears of pain. Nuthing could ever make the scars that have been lfet there ever disaper, or even close th wonds that he has cased me. After a week or so, I was having lots of problems, my father was in the hospitol on his daeth bed, not knowing that he will live (he did by the way) the have the heart brake set in. I could never eat, sleep, talk, nor even smile all I did was cry, no matter what I did or what my friends and family did to cheer me up it never worked. I had got so tired of the pain, the crying, the hearace, I tryed to comit suiside in so many ways, but I would always get caut; I tryed to dround my self, I had done OD, I cut my self realy bad, I would starve myself, I would even poisen myself but no non of it had worked. I still to this day wish one solution would have worked, I just could not take the pain that has been inflicked on me that year and to that presnt time, between getting raiped, forced on, hit, hreat broken, and then been torn apart, I could not handel the pain!

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