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This is my story...It was the 2nd day of 11th grade (2 years ago) and it was my last chance to pick who my crush for the year would be. It had become a ritual for me to pick out a crush at school by the 2nd day of school starting. I was to crush on the girl all year and make an effort to talk to her to see if anything could happen. She also had to be in one of my classes.
Usually I was too shy and never said anything to them. By the end of the year the rules of the crush game forced me to give up the crush and all hope with that girl. But we are only on the 2nd day for this story.
I went to my 2nd class for the day which was German. I was getting nervous as I hadnt found anyone who really did it for me. I hadnt felt an ounce of crush for any of the other girls in my classes and I only had two more classes after German to find someone.
I sat and waited, looking at all the girls in the room and eyeing each one that came in the door. As class was just about to start the door opened. Before I saw anything my mind basically orgasmed, it knew what was coming. My heart started beating fast and my hands were noticably shaking. In came the first girl, then the 2nd and finally the third.
I had never seen this girl before, such beautiful big eyes, perfect hair, a georgous smile and of course the slammin bod.
I looked away quickly as she walked to an open seat on the other side of the room as to not be noticed right away. I tried calming my senses and regaining my propective on life before looking up again.
I sat there in German class listening to all the noise around me become a white euphoric Garden of Eden for me while I daydreamed about what the year would bring with this crush.
As soon as the bell rang for class to be over packed my things up and left the room looking at the floor the whole time. I sped walked down the hall and found my friend Seth. I told him all about her. I wouldnt shut up about her and Id only seen her for the first time an hour and 15 minutes ago.
Me and Seth walked sown the hall meeting up with some other friends. I filled them all in and then the worry set in. My mind raced with questions about her. Does she have a boyfriend? Is she a lesbian? Things that would deter her from liking me. I sent everyone out on missions to find out everything they could.
The news came back positive from my friends. She didnt have a boyfriend or an older brother on any of the sports teams and as far as anyone could tell she liked boys. We decided to nick name her Germany.
The next few weeks passed without me saying anything to Germany. I tryed to remain undiscovered from her. I got too nervous to say anything to her. I could hardly look at her and not have to use my hall pass.
German became my favorite class, as I walked in the classenzimmer one day the teacher told us we were going to the commons area to look at the art show. The class just walked around and voted on their top 5 favorite pictures. As we were going back to the room her and one of her friends were a head of everyone else, followed by me. She opened the door for her friend and held it open for a good 3 seconds for me to get through the door. I said, Thanks and she said Youre welcome. That was one of my 5 or 6 conversations with her that year.
I was too nervous to talk to her. I tried but could only come up with a good yes or no question every once in a while.
My obsession only grew and I hated myself for not being able to talk to her. I never shut up about her to my friends and I didnt know anything more about her after 6 months than I did after 6 seconds.
The end of school seemed to come faster that year than the year before. It was year book signing day. I had been waiting for this day for 3 months. I had planned to confess my crush for her. I didnt care about the crush game rules anymore. No, fuck that. I was gonna give her my number and hang out with her that summer and even date her that next year. I was throwing the crush game out the window.
She sat on the other side of the commons from me and my group of friends. I was more nervous than I could ever remember. I convinced myself I was going over to her at 10:45. It was 10:31. No backing out now.
She stood up along with a few of her friends. First I thought she was leaving. My body pulled at me to stop her. She turned towards me and my friends. She was coming over to me. My mind was racing. Had she felt the same way as I had this whole time? Did she set a timer on herself too and was waiting til 10:31 to come over? It sounds stupid now, but in the moment it all made sense.
She got closer and closer. Time was in a way non existent. Everything around her moving a million miles and hour. Her, walking toward me for what seemed like an eternity. There she was, 3 feet away from me. Face to face for the first time this year. I had been talking to Russell who was right infront of me. We stopped talking and both looked at her. She looked back. She stared straight into Russells eyes and said, I just have to tell you that youre georgous. Turned and walked away. Russells eyes were wide and scared shitless knowing he was turning back to see my face. My face literally transformed into the shape of a big red heart heart, turned black and shattered falling to the floor. Promise. Okay for reals now.
I blinked a few times as it all hit me. I turned and started running. All my friends that were there heard it. They were chasing after me. I didnt know where I was going and I didnt care. People tried to grab me to stop me. They didnt even slow me down. I ran right through them, out the doors and all the way to my car. I had long lost those who were chasing after me. I started driving. I dont know how fast or slow. I dont remember anything about that. The next memeory I have is of me in my friends basement. Sitting in a computer chair staring at a wall. My friends showed up about 10 minutes later to support me.
This was the first time this girl broke my heart. Somehow we started talking over the summer on MSN Messenger and became pretty close friends. She knew I liked her a lot.
One of my best friends began signing on the same account for messenger and began talking to her. They eventually fell for each other and started dating behind my back. After finding this out I was sent into a downward spiral for 3 months. I didnt leave my friends extra bedroom in the basement for 3 months. My friend, Dewey, and his family would bring me food all the time and check up on me. I owe them a big thanks. I also want to say thanks to all my friends who were on my side and put up with me for the 3 months I was being an ass hole to everyone.
I guess Im glad it happened. Im not really becasue it sucked but I try to be positive. For an update...I moved to Arizona and the friend who hooked up with Germany moved to Florida. She asked me to go to her senior prom with her. She didnt ask him. I never lose.
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